ONE OF THE MOST FRUSTRATING THINGS IN LIFE WILL ALWAYS BE GIVING SOMEONE 100% OF U & NOT GETTING 100% OF THEM BACK.

I wanted someone to love who would stay: stay and be there, always.

When I text you it means I’m missing you. When i don’t it means I’m waiting for you to miss me. If only you knew.

I know you aren’t perfect. But it’s a person’s imperfections that make them perfect for someone else.

When you miss someone so much that it hurts,
That’s how you know you’re in love.

You’re in love, and you’re in pain
And you’re afraid he doesn’t love you like he did before
Because he never says he misses you back
And he doesn’t pick up the phone when you call anymore
(You’re terrified and you have no idea if you have any reason to be.)

Love will make you paranoid
And you’ll never stop worrying
About whether he wants you now
And if he’ll still want you in a month
(Or if he’s been fucking that girl he met two weeks ago.)

You’ll wonder endlessly if he still cares about you
If he still remembers all the beautiful things he said to you
And if he still means what he said
Or if he ever meant it at all
(Or maybe he was just saying those things to get you into his bed.)

And love will hurt, and it’ll never stop hurting
Because you’ll always feel an ache
That sense of ending
That someday it won’t be like this anymore
Because he won’t be happy with you
Or someone will leave and won’t come back
And then what would happen?
How would you go about your day without his unopened messages on your phone
And his smell still in your hair
And the feeling of his lips on yours in the front of your mind?
(Or, how would you go about your day with exactly all of those things bouncing off the walls of your brain
And not break down when you remember that it’s all over?)

And all of this will make you realize that
You’ll always miss him too much
And you’ll always love him too long
And there’s nothing you can do about it.

Despite what you may believe, you can disappoint people and still be good enough. You can make mistakes and still be capable and talented. You can let people down and still be worthwhile and deserving of love. Everyone has disappointed someone they care about. Everyone messes up, lets people down, and makes mistakes. Not because we’re inadequate or fundamentally inept, but because we’re imperfect and fundamentally human. Expecting anything different is setting yourself up for failure.